Whew! - Days 122-144

The last few weeks have been a whirlwind of butter, sugar, flour, nuts, fruit and chocolate.  I cannot begin to tell you how many cookie hugs I gave out this holiday season...well over a thousand.  It was amazingly soul satisfying and amazingly tiring.  Somehow I managed to fit in some wonderful moments with family and friends along the way.  Since I had no time to post, I thought I would share some photos to document my time away. 

I am looking forward to the new year.  2010 has been an adventure.  I hope 2011 will bring the new beginnings I so desperately crave.

Happy New Year!

Many hugs,
Kathy

Busy As Can Be - Days 115-121

The holiday frenzy has begun and I have had no time to post and still don't.  I thought I might at least let the pictures do the talking.

Many hugs,
Kathy

Feeling The Loss - Days 112, 113 and 114

Late today on my way home I received an e-mail notifying me that I would not be able to continue to do business with one of my largest accounts.  Over the last few months we participated in an extensive bid proprosal from an outside purchasing management company in Mexico.  Hundreds of quotes were submitted.  Countless hours were spent on spreadsheets and questions.  The proposal culminated with a bid auction where price was the only deciding factor.  Companies battled to see who could win the job by going below cost.  We did not win the battle.  All the deadlines we had met...all the attention to detail we had shown...all the seminars we had given to educate the buyers...all the quality we had put into the finished product...all the relationships and friendships we had nurtured,...all of this was for naught.  None of it mattered.  Price was the only thing that mattered.  It made me extremely melancholy.  I will miss the friendships.  I will miss the income.  But most of all I will miss believing that if you do things the right way, you will be rewarded. That belief is gone.  It died with an e-mail.  An e-mail that simply said..."See the Non-Reward Letter below..."  What a way to end years of doing things the right way.

The last couple of nights have been spent decorating a Heartsong Cookies tree.  This weekend I got the bright idea to shake things up a bit and do something different with our Christmas tree.  Mike hates getting all the Christmas decorations out of the attic and I wanted a creative outlet.  A trip to the dollar store and a rummage through my kitchen cabinets gave me all I needed to put together my tacky creation.  I trimmed the tree with wooden spoons, spatulas, cookie scoops, pot holders, candy, cookie cutters and red, silver and turquoise colored balls.  I picked up some mini Chinese take our boxes that will be filled with mini Heartsong Cookies and hung on the tree for this weekend's Christmas party.  I fashioned a tree skirt out of a variety of dollar store dish towels.  The result made me smile.  It is tacky and goofy and very me.

Many hugs,
Kathy

In The Giving Spirit - Days 110-111

Black Friday was spent exactly the way it should be...shopping and eating with Vicky...more eating with Mike and Ryan...and finally a whole lot of baking.  I finished the day around 2:30 a.m. with little desire to write a posting.  In fact, I am still suffering from that lack of desire.  It is a shame because today was a wonderful day full of good things (except the Gators).  I actually began the day with 4 1/2 hours a sleep...more than double my usual pre-market output.  The cookies looked beautiful nestled in their holiday adorned baskets.  In fact the entire booth was decked out in Heartsong holiday finery and looked darn good.  I caught the holiday spirit ealier in the week and it continued at the market.  Traffic was slow as expected, but the customers that did stop by got bonuses.  I threw in extra cookies in their orders.  I gave free cookies to fellow vendors.  I gave free cookies to almost everyone that glanced my way.  It was fun.  Mike and Dennis kidded me about my amazing business sense.  Somehow I still managed to make a little money...enough to cover the cost for the December market rental and lunch with Dennis and Mike.  Cookie millionaireville here I come! 

The giving spirit must be contagious because the Gators were definitely in the giving mood this afternoon.  They gave away the ball four times.  They gave up touchdowns.  They gave out excuses and a sickening feeling to all who love the Gators.  I hope Urban can find a cure for this generous spirit that has affected our beloved team.

Many hugs,
Kathy

A Lot To Be Thankful For - Days 108-109

Last night was a roller coaster ride.  One minute I was enjoying small plates with Mike at Cheesecake Factory.  The next minute I was dropping my iPhone on the pavement and shattering the touch screen.  Uug!  Mike and I headed to the AT&T store for a replacement and spent the rest of the night trying to sync it.  It was an expensive, frustrating way to end a nice evening.

This morning Mike and I went on an early morning walk to pick up a Sunday paper and get a little exercise.  It was so nice not to be chained to the kitchen for a change.  For the first time ever, I was not cooking Thanksgiving Day dinner.  Instead we were dining out at Maggiano's with the family.  No copious groceries to buy.  No house to clean up.  No turkey to baste.  No potatoes to mash.  No veggies to chop.  No table to set. 

I felt a little lost, but quickly got over it.  My need to fix something was satisfied by baking a quick and easy pumpkin pie.

Dinner at Maggiano's was delicious.  The four course meal was served family style with the only real challenge being agreement on the choices.  We began the meal with bruschetta, compliments of the chef.  Then it was on to the salad course - Caesar Salad and Maggiano's Salad.  Next came the entree and pasta course - Turkey with Foccacia Sausage Dressing, Ham with Whipped Sweet Potatoes, Four Cheese Ravioli, Butternut Squash Ravioli, Creamed Corn and Garlic Mashed Potatoes.  The grand finale was a Pumpkin Cheesecake and a decadent Chocolate Cake.  I actually got to sit at the table with the family and engage in conversation.  As I looked around the table I realized I had a lot to be thankful for...great food and good people to share it with.  Happy Thanksgiving to all!

Many hugs,
Kathy 

A Basket Of Hugs - Day 108

Tonight I baked a basket of Thanksgiving hugs for my friends at SeaWorld.  They are some of my biggest cookie fans and I thought it would be the perfect time to tell them how much I appreciate their support.  I used up the leftover dough from Sunday's birthday cookies and fashioned a basket full of mini morsels. 

In the down time between batches I planned the flavor choices for this weekend's farmers market.  The offerings will include Peppermint Bark Cookies, White Chocolate Blueberry Pecan, Cranberry Walnut Chocolate Chip, Peanut Butter Cup Chocolate Chip Pecan, Tri Chip (No Nuts), Holiday M&M, Sugar Cookies and Chewy Molasses Cookies.  I may also experiment with a flavor combo I have wanted to try for a long time - Dark Chocolate Orange.  I found candied orange peel at the grocery store and think it will make a great addition to my dark chocolate cookie base.

Many hugs,
Kathy

Comfort Food - Day 107

Tonight was all about comfort food.  I met Mike at Cracker Barrel for dinner.  I don't exactly know why I like this restaurant so much.  The food is not remarkable.  The decor is rather tacky.  But I feel good every time I go.  Tonight was no exception. 

The good feeling was made even better by the company.  Mike and I had a great conversation about nature versus nurture.  A conversation with a client got me thinking as I drove around the state today and I shared my thoughts with Mike.  My client was lamenting the challenges she was having with her sixteen year old son.  I thought about just how fortunate I have been with my son.  I dreamed years ago of raising my little red headed handful into a confident, successful man.  My dream came true beyond my wildest dreams.  Ryan and I argue about who should get more credit for the way he turned out...his parents or his genes.  He thinks he deserves most of the credit.  I think his dad and I did a damn good job.  Mike thinks nature and nuture both play important roles.  Anyway, the topic lead to a great discussion with Mike and a big smile on my face.  This was comfort at its best.

Many hugs,
Kathy

Birthday Baking - Day 106

Mike was still in South Florida so I had a day all to myself with a to do list a mile long.  Maddie mad sure I got off to an early start at 7:00 a.m. by jumping on the bed and standing over me until I got my butt up to take her on a walk.  Problem was I still hadn't caught up from the lack of sleep the last few days and I wanted nothing more than to climb back in bed with my breakfast tray to watch Breakfast With The Gators.  Yes, I know it is sick.  I just went to the game yesterday...but there is something so relaxing about watching the game over on TV.  I missed my usual viewing partner, but Maddie did her best as a stand in for Mike.  I think she was feeling a little guilty for getting me out of bed.

With half the day gone, I finally tackled my list.  First priority was making dough for birthday cookies for Ariana.  Her mom had requested a mixed basket of 36 cookies for her to to take to school tomorrow and I promised to deliver early this evening.  I made White Chocolate Macadamia, Toasted Pecan Chocolate Chip, Tropical Escape and Peanut Butter Cup Chocolate Chip Pecan.  Each batch turned out pretty close to perfect.  I think it must have been the good mood I was in.  In between the dough making and baking I managed to tackle a few of my household chores...unfortunately a few too few.  My list is still gargantuan.

I bagged the cookies, wrapped them up in Heartsong finery and headed out to drop them off to Ariana. When I arrived at their home her little sister greeted me in the yard.  "Hello, Cookie Lady!" she giggled.  It was so cute.  Ariana headed out the door to retrieve the basket.  The look on her face made all my effort worthwhile.  She kept repeating "It is just so beautiful!"  My heart was singing as I drove away.  I love what I do!

Tonight Mike and I finally got to have our dinner out together that had eluded us on Friday night.  We had a wonderful meal at Bonefish with a $25 gift card and a little more.  Time alone is OK for accomplishing things, but time with Mike is just plain wonderful!

Many hugs,
Kathy

A Group Hug and A Good Day - Days 103-105

One hundred thirty mini hug bags make for one gigantic group hug and very little sleep.  I sorely underestimated the time it would take for me to complete my promise to Dorene to deliver the cookies by 8:00 Friday morning.  I began the task around 4:30 Thursday afternoon and finished at 4:30 Friday morning.  Oh my...I was tired, but happy.  They were the cutest "little" group of hugs I had ever made.  Dorene seemed really pleased when I dropped them off.  I hope the teachers she was honoring would feel the love I put into each tasty morsel.

Two hours of sleep made for one very long work day.  Combine no sleep with the beginnings of a head cold and you get one pooped purveyor.  Mike and I attempted to dine out Friday night, but all of Orlando decided to dine out as well.  After visiting four restaurants with hour waits we decided soup at home and an early turn in was the perfect alternative.  No bowl of soup ever tasted better.  No bed ever felt better.

Today was a good day.  Mike left around 3:00 in the morning for a bowling tournament in Miami.  Thankfully I got to stay in bed a little longer.  My expectations for the day were low.  I was taking my mom and Chris to Gainesville to see the Gators play their final home game against Appalachian State.  After last week's Gator performance, I did not think I could stomach another game.  I was also worried about my mom.  Her recent mystery illness made me wonder if she could handle the walking and stress of game day.  But when she showed up at the house so excited to be going to the game, I had an inkling things were going to turn out just fine.  We picked up Chis and headed to Chick-fil-a for breakfast courtesy of Chris.  My mom is very expressive and appreciative of the little things.  The happy sounds she made while enjoying her biscuit made me smile.  And Chris was so proud to be treating us.  It was very cool.

We took the scenic route to Gainesville stopping at Yalaha Bakery along the way for a couple of my favorite cookies - Almond Horns, courtesy of Chris.   My mom pointed out fall foiliage and grape vines along the way.  Once again I smiled.  I realized my mom is one of the big reasons I notice and take great pleasure in the little things.  This was very cool.

We made it to Gainesville with just enough time for Chris to make his weekly Gator garb purchase.  Mom made it to the stadium a little winded, but just fine.  And the Gators actually showed up to play.  We bonded with our fellow Gators around us.  Shared high fives, hugs and "We Are The Boys" swaying.  Our mugs were featured on the jumbo tron at least three times.   The Gators won 48-10.  It was great to be a Florida Gator once again.  Post game traffic was minimal.  We headed to Bistro 1245 for our postgame celebration.  As I watched my mom savor her second glass of wine and Chris laugh an open mouth green pesto laugh, I thought to myself this was very cool.

Today was a really good day and it was all very cool.

Many hugs,
Kathy

My Heart Is Still Singing - Day 102

Ryan, when you came into my world 24 years ago my heart sang.  It is still singing and it always will be.  You have made me a very proud mom.  Happy Birthday!

Many hugs,
Kathy

Twenty Four Years Ago...Day 101

Tomorrow...or actually later today my son turns twenty four.  As I baked birthday cookies for him tonight, my thoughts turned back to the evening twenty four years ago.  The excitement, the fear, the pain, the anticipation...it all came flooding back to me.  My life changed forever in the best way possible.  We brought an amazing little red headed bundle into the world.  Happy Birthday Ryan! 

Many hugs,
Kathy

One Hundred Days - Day 100

Wow!  I can't believe it has actually been one hundred days since I started purveying hugs and cookies.  It definitely has been a wild ride with many sleepless nights and lessons learned.  But most of all it has been the most soul satisfying undertaking I have ever been involved with.  My friends and family have amazed me with their unending support.  I found a home at the Lake Mary Farmers' Market and even have acquired a handful of regular customers.  It doesn't get much better than that!

Today I got to play cookie fairy with my mini cookie samples I made last night.  I assembled a couple of mini Hug Bags for Dorene to see if the size and packaging would work for her teacher thank you treats to honor American Education Week.  She was thrilled and said they would be the perfect size to tuck in their cubbies.  Now I just have to figure out how I can get them all assembled for Friday morning. 

This week is going to be crazy.  I have said "Yes!" a few too many times this week.  Birthday cookies for Ryan.  Extra birthday cookies for him to share with his co-workers and Jaguars players.  Birthday cookies for Peggy's daughter.  Booksigning cookies for Margaret.  And finally 130 mini Hug Bags for Dorene.  Breathe.  I can do this! 

Many hugs,
Kathy

Mini Hugs - Day 99

This morning I woke up with a South Carolina game hangover and I hadn't even had a drop of alcohol the day before.  Frankly I wish I had.  After re-hashing all we thought was wrong with the Gators, Mike, Chris and I headed to lunch at Carrabba's.  The food was great.  Mike and I shared Risotto Poppers and the Italian Combo plate.  Chris had Pasta Carrabba with a side of more Gator moaning and groaning.  I think we finally got it all out of our system by the end of the meal.  Chris headed for home.  I headed out to run errands.  Mike headed for the computer to laugh at all the postings on Gator Country.

Tonight I experimented with cookie sizes for an order later in the week for Dorene.  I made a batch of Cranberry Walnut Chocolate Chip and used my tiniest scoop and the next size up to craft a smaller version of a Heartsong Cookie.  I have to find an affordable way to put together 125 Mini Hugs for a group of teachers.  Dorene wants something to tuck in their mail slots to honor American Education Week.  I think I may have found the solution.  Two mini cookies in a tiny cello bag dressed up with a hug tag and a ribbon bow.  I think it works.  Now the hard part...figuring out how to cover my costs and fit within her budget.  I honestly wish I could do it all for free.

Many hugs,
Kathy

We Laid An Egg - Day 98

A stinking, rotten, nasty, dirty, ugly, sucky egg.  If I could think of any other adjectives at 12:55 in the morning I would add to the list.  Tonight I witnessed the most miserable display of football I have ever experienced at Florida Field.  It was so bad that I could not stomach any more of it and left late in the third quarter.  Another first for this Gator fan.  I know I am spoiled rotten with year after year of success, but this is ridiculous.  It is not the least bit fun.  It is painful.  Ryan kept admonishing me during the game for my complaining, but I could not help myself.  I like competition.  I like to win.  I do not like to see a coaching staff do the same stupid thing over and over and over again and expect different results.  This is INSANITY!  I know this has absolutely nothing to do with purveying hugs and cookies, but I have to vent.  Tomorrow...or later today, the sun will come up and all will once again be right in the world.  But tonight life smells like rotten eggs.

Many hugs,
Kathy

Purveying Happiness - Day 97

I honestly don't know who is happier...me the baker of the cookies or those who eat them.  Last night I stayed up late baking cookies for my friends Carolyn, Peggy and Bree.  After a week long sabbatical from baking I was feeling a little rusty and a lot lazy.  I really wasn't in the mood.  But then I tossed some butter, brown sugar and vanilla into my mixing bowl and things began to change.  The relaxing, comforting feeling that overcomes me every time I hear the roar of the mixer worked its magic once again. Suddenly I wasn't the least bit tired and all the rust was gone.  I was baking basket full of hugs for my friends and it felt so good.  The flavors of the evening were White Chocolate Blueberry Pecan, Cranberry Walnut Chocolate Chip, Tri Chip and M & M Milk Chocolate Chip.  I bagged each hug individually and tucked them into baskets decked out in the colors of fall.

This morning I headed out to purvey a little happiness.  Peggy was the first stop.  Her basket was being passed on to a friend fresh out of the hospital in need of a little comfort.  Carolyn at my office was stop two.  She was sharing her basket with a new customer in hopes of gaining a smile and a job or two.  My last stop was the office of my friend Bree.  She and her husband Jason are celebrating their 1st anniversary with a weekend picnic in St. Augustine.  Heartsong Cookies seemed like the perfect addition to her picnic basket.

With each stop, I got a big smile to add to my collection.  I could get used to purveying happiness all day long.  It just feels right.  And it fits right in with my vow to breathe.  Aaaaahhhhhhhh.  This is the way life should be.

Many hugs,
Kathy 

When I Grow Up...Day 96

Yesterday I received a call from Greg, a client friend I work with once a year.  The last time I saw him I dropped off a couple of cookies with a proof and told him about my dream of a business.  So it was not surprising that he greeted me with the question "How are the cookies going?"  I was happy to report my dream had come true.  I was actually in the cookie business.  I told him of the challenges and the successes.  I shared the joy of watching a customer taste a bite of a Heartsong Cookie for the first time.  Greg listened intently and then shared a story of his own.  He told me fifteen years ago he started a "side" business of his own with a $1,000 investment and 200 customers.  Five years later he quit his full time job to run his "side" business.  Fifteen years later his "side" business grosses $7-8million...yes, MILLION dollars a year.  Amazing!

Greg said when you do things for all the right reasons...like making people happy, good things will follow.

When I grow up...
I want to be Greg!

Many hugs,
Kathy

A Dennis Dinner - Day 95

Today began with a bang and ended with a hug.  On the way to work I was rear ended at a stop light.  Thank goodness the damage was minimal...just some scuffs and a jolt.  As the day wore on I continued to adjust to my new more relaxed way of doing business.  I am actually starting to get the hang of it.  A good work day ended with an early dinner with my friend Dennis at BJ's Brewhouse.  We shared a couple of appetizers, stories of our recent vacations and pondered the feasablility of Heartsong Cookies participating in a holiday event in Winter Garden on Friday, December 3rd.  It was a great way to wrap up my day.

Many hugs,
Kathy

Balance - Day 94

I am trying to get the hang of this breathing thing.  For me, I am either all in or all out.  Today, I felt all out.  I could not get motivated to do much of anything.  I felt kind of unconnected.  Thank goodness my day was pretty much planned for me.  After an early morning sales meeting, I was off to Tampa to deliver a job and pick up another...nice and mindless.  Tonight I warmed up some leftover pasta, did a little birthday shopping for Ryan and indulged a guilty pleasure of really bad reality TV.  As I sat down to my do my posting tonight and reflected on my day, I realized I have to find some balance.  I cannot go from frantic to lethargic.  My happy place is somewhere in the middle.  I didn't think it would be this hard.  Change is definitely a work in progress.

Many hugs,
Kathy

I Vow To Breathe - Day 93

During the last week of recuperation and renewal I learned a few things about myself.  I learned that I like myself a lot better when I relax.  I learned that I have to make some major changes in the way I live my life.  Frantic and out of control must be replaced with deep breaths and a slower pace. 

This morning was my first day back to work in over a week.  The anxiety began last night and continued when the alarm went off this morning.  I cannot begin another week like this.  I made a vow to myself right then and there.  I vowed to breath.  I vowed to make changes and pursue new opportunities.  I said my vow out loud to Mike as I left the house.  His reaction told me I was on the right track.  It was a look of...DUH!  WHY DID IT TAKE YOU SO LONG TO FIGURE IT OUT?!

Many hugs,
Kathy 

Vacation Finale - Day 92

Today was the grand finale to a week of rest and relaxation.  And what better way to go out with a bang than spending the day with Ryan taking a culinary tour of Orlando with some football mixed in.  We began at home with Breakfast With The Gators and Chocolate Hazelnut Biscotti Granola.  Then it was on to the AT&T store to get Ryan a new iPhone.  His phone died yesterday and it was time.  The afternoon was spent at Buffalo Wild Wings with Ryan's friend Long, lots of NFL football and great wings.

A visit to mom at the hospital was next on the agenda.  We arrived just in time to see her packing up for home.  She was finally getting discharged after five days in the hospital...still not knowing what was the cause of her infection, but very grateful to be out of there. 

This evening Ryan and I made one more culinary stop.  We headed for Olive Garden for a little comfort food and conversation.  I miss having Ryan around.  This was quite a treat to get to spend the entire final day of my vacation accomplishing absolutely nothing, but spending time with my son.  After giving Ryan a quick haircut he headed out the door for the trip back to Jacksonville.  Mike was on the way back from Atlanta.  And I was left feeling melancholy and alone.  The week had been amazing and exactly what I needed.  But tomorrow work and my stress filled life would begin again.  Oh joy.   

Many hugs,
Kathy

Bartering With Cookies - Day 91

This morning began with a panicked realization that my alarm did not go off and it was time to leave for the market.  Thank goodness Ryan heard me scurrying to get ready and woke up to load my car while I finished getting ready.  We made it to the market with minutes to spare.  Ryan helped me set up the booth, but had other plans for the day, so I worked the market alone.  It actually was OK.  Traffic was steady and the weather was brisk just like I like it.  I almost sold out of my cookies and was able to use the last few remaining morsels as barter for some tasty treats.  I traded a bag of cookies for four mini cream puffs from my friends at Cream Puffery...a few more for two delectable pulled pork sandwiches...three more yielded a jar of pickled peppers and four more turned into a beautiful orchid plant from one of my best customers.  I could get used to this form of trade.  Who needs money?  I DO!

I love the sense of community I have developed at the market.  The vendors are like a family.  I even have developed a handful of regular customers.  This makes all the effort worthwhile.  It definitely fuels my soul. 

Many hugs,
Kathy

A Magical Night - Day 90

My good friend Vicky gave me a wonderful birthday treat that I was able to share with my son Ryan... tickets to the Orlando Magic vs. New Jersey Nets game at the new Amway Center.  Not just any tickets, but her club seat tickets with an amazing view of the court and parking pass included. Ryan and I had a wonderful time together exploring the impressive new digs, and feasting on overpriced, but good arena food.  It truly was a magical night.  Thanks Vicky!

Many hugs,
Kathy

Good News and Good Eats - Day 89

My son Ryan came to visit last night and brought with him a belated birthday gift...the promise of time together and a selection of recipes from which to choose a birthday dinner prepared by him.  I chose Chicken with Prosciutto and Sage and a Frittata.  This morning Ryan and I set out on our day together.  We began with breakfast at Athena Cafe with Mike and then headed to the hospital to visit my mom.  Even though her blood pressure was low, her spirits were high.  Many of the more serious possibilities have been ruled out, but they still have no idea what is causing the infection.  After a nice visit with mom, Ryan and l did a little shopping at the mall and the grocery store.  Then headed home to relax.  I felt like a queen as Ryan did all the prep for my birthday meal.  He has turned into quite a good cook.  You can tell cooking for others is something that fuels his soul like baking fuels mine.  Dinner was delicious!  He couldn't have given me a better gift.

After dinner I got a voice mail from my mom with very good news.  The doctor had stopped by and was pleased with her progress.  If her vitals are good tomorrow evening after another night of the antibiotic drip, she will be allowed to go home.  Happy dance!

Many hugs,
Kathy

Feeling Pretty - Day 88

I finally got to talk to my mom this morning.  She seemed in good spirits, but still did not know what was causing the fever and the swelling.  She had been poked, prodded, scanned and still knew nothing.  I asked her what she needed to feel more comfortable.  All she wanted was undereye concealer and a curling iron.  She wanted her self esteem back.  I was going to pick up some cheery flowers on my way to the hospital, but her request gave me a better idea.  I would go to my least favorite shopping establishment...WalMart Supercenter to pick up goodies to make my mom feel pretty.  I got a makeup bag and filled it with foundation, undereye concealer, blush, eyeshadow and mascara.  I grabbed a mirror, curling iron, brush and a few treats...Keebler Fudge Sticks (mom's favorite guilty pleasure) and a couple of magazines.  Then I headed to the hospital. 

I wish you could have seen my mom's face when I presented her with the goodie bag.  She was like a kid on Christmas morning.  I opened everything and set her up for prettification.  We talked a while and I headed out to run errands and do some prettification of my own...cleaning my house.  I called my mom later in the afternoon and the tone of her voice told me everything I needed to hear.  The gift worked its magic.  My mom felt pretty again. 

Many hugs,
Kathy

It Must Have Been A Dream - Day 87

The last three days were truly magical.  So magical that I think it must have all been a dream.  A dream from which I awoke the moment I drove over the border from Georgia into Florida.  That is when reality bit me in the butt.  First I got an e-mail from the commercial kitchen owner further restricting my baking hours at the kitchen and making it virtually impossible for me to prepare for the farmers' market.  Then I got a text message from my brother telling me my mom was at the emergency room with a high fever and swelling.  I tried to call him, but the signal would not go through in the hospital.  My phone battery was almost dead and I could not get any answers.  All the stress that had vacated my body the last few days came storming back.  I felt sick, worried and helpless.  We made it back home around 10:00, 1 1/2 hours past the end of visiting hours.  My mom is having a cat scan and I still have no answers.  The dream was replaced by a nightmare.

Many hugs and prayers for my mom,
Kathy

EXACTLY What I Needed - Day 86

Today was the perfect prescription for everything that ails me.  It was EXACTLY what I needed.  Mike and I woke up after NINE hours of sleep...yes NINE, not 1 1/2, 2, 3 or 4, but NINE!  I opened the curtains to a gorgeous view of the Blue Ridge Mountains dressed in all their Fall slendor.  We headed downstairs for our free breakfast and then hit the road for apple picking.  We ended up at Reece's Apple Farm just outside of Ellijay.  Apple picking season is just about over,  but  they did have Arkansas Black and Rome Beauty still on the trees.  I was in heaven.  We filled a bushel bag with our ruby goodies and supplemented our haul with pre-picked Cameo and Yates apples.  A fried apple pie and an apple cider slushie completed the visit.  I cannot begin to explain how good this morning made me feel.  And this was only the beginning.  We stopped by Hillcrest Apple Farms for a 1/2 peck of mini Fuji, Red Delicious, Pink Lady and Cameo Apples.  Then it was on to Burt's Farm specializing in pumpkins, gourds, squash and Indian corn...all things that make Fall seem like Fall.  We frolicked amongst the pumpkins just like all the kids that were paying a visit to the farm.  By this time I was giddy.

Dahlonega was next.  We wandered through the quaint downtown square stopping for a taste of fudge and a sip of wine.  Lunch was a mid afternoon German feast at Hofer's in Helen.  Mike had a Schnitzel Sandwich.  I put together my own sampler plate from the side item menu...a single wurst, red cabbage, spatzle and a pretzel dumpling.  Oh my, the pretzel dumpling was divine...kind of like a savory French toast topped with sauteed onions.

Tonight we played on the computer and dined on wine, bread, salami, apples and cheese served on a hand towel.  No utensils.  Nothing fancy.  Just perfection.  Time with Mike.  No stress.  Nature.  Mountains.  Cool air.  Sweet smells.  It was a feast for my soul.  I am satiated and content.  Once again life is pretty damn good.

Many hugs,
Kathy

Birthday Perfection - Day 85

Today Mike and I escaped our messy house, stressful life and money worries.  We headed north for a birthday getaway in north Georgia.  The drive took most of the day, but was actually quite relaxing.  Mike read me articles from the latest editions of Gator Bait.  I love when Mike reads to me.  It doesn't matter the subject, although it usually involves something political or sports related.  It just plain makes me happy.  We stopped for lunch at the ultimate comfort food restaurant...Old Times Country Buffet in Tifton, Georgia.  This restaurant is trough feeding at its best.  I gorged myself on country style veggies...fried okra, creamed corn, rhutabagas, greens, mashed potatoes, dressing, squash casserole.  Then I topped it off with a piece of fried chicken, Brunswick stew and peach cobbler.  I must have consumed 3,000 calories in just one meal, but it was heavenly.  The view was pretty cool as well.  The restaurant was filled with people decked out in their Sunday best.  It was a fashion parade of hats and brightly colored polyester suits.

We arrived at the Amicalola Falls State Park and Lodge just as the sun was setting over the mountains.  This was exactly what I wanted for my birthday.  This was perfection.

Many hugs,
Kathy

In For A Treat - Days 83-84

My vacation began by spreading a little happiness. I got up early Friday to take a basket of cookies to David for the fall festival at his work.  His face lit up as he opened the door to my sizable donation.  I was happy with the way the basket came together and hoped the cookie recipients would be as well.  David handed me a brown paper bag in exchange  The package included a very special treat...David's mighty tasty homemade hummus, pita bread and a knife.  Mmmmmmmm.  I ate every bite.  The rest of the day included a return to normalcy...something I have not seen in far too long.  I got my oil changed, voted, ran baking errands and got a hair cut.  Suddenly I felt more in control of my life and it felt oh so good!

Then it was time to bake and bake and bake some more... until 3:15 a.m.  I actually got 3 1/2 hours of sleep before the Lake Mary Farmers' Market today.  Compared to less than a hour for the two previous market appearances, I felt quite rested.  Today was a beautiful market day filled with lots of hugs, friends and happiness.  Customers seemed to like the cookies.  David's boss even liked the fall festival cookies so much he wants to talk to me next week about selling them at his new retail establishment.  This reminded me once again that when you give freely of yourself to others, you will be rewarded with many good things.  It reminded me just how powerful the "power of good" really is.

Tonight I got all I ever wanted for my birthday.  I spent the evening with my family at Cheesecake Factory...good food and good company.  My beloved Gators actually won a game in overtime.  Gator nation rejoiced.  And tonight I am packing for my mini getaway with my husband to North Georgia.  I think Mike and I are in for a treat...time together.

Many hugs,
Kathy

It's Official - Day 82

It's official...I am on VACATION!  Yahoo!  I commemorated this special day by doing what I do best...baking.  I roasted one of the Seminole pumpkins my friend David gave me.  Pureed the pulp.  Cooked it down to a thick paste with brown sugar.  Then I made two batches of Pumpkin Chocolate Chip Cookies...one with the fresh pumpkin, one with canned pumpkin.  Both smelled unbelievable as they came out of the oven.  I also baked a batch of White Chocolate Blueberry Pecan Cookies.  All were individually wrapped, decked out in Fall ribbons and assembled into a gargantuan basket destined for the Fall Festival at the nursery where David works.  David and Sheri have invited me to numerous amazing Wednesday family dinners.  This was the least I could do to say thanks.

Many hugs,
Kathy

Renewing A Tradition - Day 81

Tonight a much loved tradition was renewed...Wednesday night dinner at the McCullough Garden Cafe.  My friends Sheri and David invited me to share dinner with them once again.  David began a new job several months ago and it has left him with far less time in the kitchen.  I was very honored to be included tonight.  He made homemade Chicken and Dumplings with veggies from his garden and homemade applesauce.  Yum!  I brought six different cupcakes from Blue Bird Bake Shop.  We cut them into quarters and tried the different flavors as they made their way around the lazy Susan.  I needed this.  A relaxing evening with friends.

After dinner I headed home to bake for Diane, Carolynn and the rest of the Hot Pink Olives.  They are about to embark on their annual 3-day walk to raise money for the Susan G. Komen Foundation.  For some unknown reason, I decided to experiment rather than go with a tried and true cookie recipe.  I threw together White Chocolate Peach Pecan Cookies and a tweaked  version of the Crispy Pumpkin Chocolate Chip Cookies I made this weekend.   I needed a taste tester, but Maddie would not cooperate and I was far too full.  Hopefully the cookies will taste as good as they look and smell.

Many hugs,
Kathy

Bakeless Night - Day 80

Another day passed without one cookie being baked.  It was an evening devoted to chores and paperwork...soul satisfying in its own way because I crossed several items off my immense to do list.

I keep daydreaming about our little trip to North Georgia this weekend.  I haven't looked forward to something so much in a long time.  It makes it hard to concentrate on work or baking. 

Tomorrow night I am baking new and improved Pumpkin Chocolate Chip Cookies.  The recipe I tried last weekend was great in texture, but overpowerd by cardamon.  I am going to substitute pumpkin pie spice for the cinnamon, cardamon, ginger, nutmeg blend.  Hopefully the pumpkin will end up the star instead of the spice. 

Many hugs,
Kathy

Making Plans - Day 79

Today had nothing whatsoever to do with baking and everything to do with making plans for spirit renewal.  I spent my lunch hour researching the area around Ellijay in North Georgia, the apple capital of the South.  I love picking apples...well frankly I love picking any kind of fruit.  To me it is the most relaxing, soulful activity I can possibly think of.  I NEED this.  And I am going to go get it.  At the recommendation of my friend Dennis, I checked out the lodge at Amicalola Falls State Park in Dawsonville, Georgia.  It is located about 65 miles north of Atlanta and about 22 miles from Ellijay.  They are currently offering a special Fall weekday rate that includes a full buffet breakfast for two at a price that fits into my budget...well it would if I had a budget.  Actually a campsite rental doesn't even fit, but I will make it work somehow.  I cannot begin to tell you how excited I am to actually head north with my husband with no real itinerary other than relaxation.  I am leaving my phone at home.  The thought of this makes me giddy.  I am happy dancing all over the place.

Many hugs,
Kathy

Pooped Purveyor - Days 76-78

Pooped.  Exhausted.  Spent. 

This is exactly how I feel after one very LONG weekend of purveying.  Oven woes continue to haunt me.  I was at the kitchen until 4:15 a.m. on Friday night and managed to climb in the bed for about 2 hours sleep before heading to Saturday's market.  Thank goodness for my friend Dennis.  He stayed with me at the kitchen until after 2:00 a.m. Friday night and was at the market bright and early Saturday to assist in cookie sales.  I honestly do not think I could have done it without him. 

I had high expectations for Lake Mary Farmers' Market this weekend.  They were also having their Fall Festival and I expected traffic to be brisk.  Lethargic was more like it.  The first two hours were like a ghost town.  The last two were filled with activity, but few sales.

I am frustrated.  I have to find a way to make this all work.  I want it all to be fun.  Right now...it is anything but.  My almost 53 year old body cannot take this wear and tear.  I feel like I have dragged my family and friends with me into this abyss.  Something has to change.  This upcoming week will be filled with self reflection to develop a plan of attack.

Many hugs,
Kathy

Productive Evening - Day 75

Tonight I headed for A Chateau Kitchen after work and managed to assemble 8 batches of cookie dough for this weekend's hugfest at the Lake Mary Farmers' Market and Fall Festival.  Unfortunately I ran out of time to test the new Pumpkin Chocolate Chip Cookie recipe.  I made good progress, but once again I am feeling a bit overwhelmed.  I have a grand vision of how I want the fall themed display to turn out...lots of cookie flavors, basket displays, decorated sugar cookies and fall decor.  All this takes time and I have one evening to pull it off.  I do not want to arive at the market on 2 hours of sleep again.  Breathe Kathy, breathe.  It will all work out.  It always does.

Many hugs,
Kathy

Progress - Day 74

Yesterday was meltdown day.  Today was the day to start anew.  I problem solved, cleaned up work challenges and developed a plan for the balance of the week.  I even got off early enough to finish refreshing planters with mums and water my handiwork.  It was just a small step toward putting my house in order, but it felt so good.  Tonight I made two batches of sugar cookie dough for this weekend's Lake Mary Farmers' Market.  I measured dry ingredients for Cranberry Chocolate Chip Pecan, White Chocolate Blueberry Pecan, Peanut Butter Cup Chocolate Chip Pecan, Milk Chocolate M & M and Dark Chocolate Toffee Almond Cookies also for this weekend.  It is Wednesday night and for a change I was on top of my game rather than days behind.  I can breathe.  I made progress.  Happy dance!

Many hugs,
Kathy

How I Spent My "Fall Vacation" - Days 69-73

This time my posting sabbatical was totally unplanned.  In fact, I thought I would have more time to craft my postings...given the fact that I was on "vacation".  Little did I know that this vacation I so desperately needed would mimic my everyday life in every way.  It was filled with good friends, some disappointing football games, driving, good food, good cookies, bad news from work, lots and lots of e-mails from work, calls from customers, more calls from work and finally a meltdown today.  All I wanted...all I needed...was a little quality time with my husband and my son.  It was not meant to be.  My co-worker, Kat was on vacation.  She did not know I had planned this trip to Jacksonville to visit my son and the Jacksonville Jaguars Monday Night Football Game months ago.  I did not know she had planned her trip to Octoberfest in Helen, Georgia for the same time.  I thought work could live without the two of us for two days.  Silly me.

Sprinkled in between the calls, e-mails and driving, I managed to fit in a little fun.  University of Florida's Homecoming and Mike's Bowling Team Reunion were both this weekend.  As hard as I tried I could not get off work in time to join my husband and Chris for Gator Growl on Friday night, but they both had a great time without me and that made me very happy.  It was great to see Mike in his element on Saturday surrounded by a couple of decades of bowlers he had mentored.  My game day menu consisted of Grilled Pizzas, Brats and Cookies.  Easy, tasty and enjoyed by all.  Unfortunately the actual football game was not as tasty.  My beloved Gators lost their third game in a row to Mississippi State.  Uug!

Sunday afternoon Chris and I attended the Orlando Magic Open Practice at the new Amway Center.  Tickets were free and it was a great way to check out the new venue.  I was impressed.  I know it is kind of silly, but it made me proud to be from Orlando.  Sunday night I baked cookies for Ryan's Jacksonville Jaguars co-workers and two of their best players...Maurice Jones-Drew and Mercedes Lewis.  Monday morning Mike and I headed to Jacksonville for lunch with Ryan at Singleton's Seafood Shack.  Before the Monday Night game, Mike and I paid a visit to Bistro Aix for a cocktail and cheese plate.  I asked the bartender to surprise me and boy am I glad he did.  The cocktail he served me was without a doubt the best drink I have ever tasted.  I have no idea what it was called, but it tasted kind of like a Mojito muddled with fresh basil instead of mint.  The bartender said it had pineapple juice and coconut rum, but I could not tell.  All I know is it was fresh, smooth and the perfect compliment to the cheese assortment.  I love Bistro Aix!

On to Everbank Field Mike and I headed for our first experience at a Monday Night Football Game.  For a city that is accused of indifference and lack of support, I was impressed by the turnout and enthusiasm in the air. Unfortunately, the Jaguars team forgot to show up.  Oh, they were there in body, but certainly not in spirit.  They played an uninspired game to its 3-30 conclusion.  After the game Ryan gave Heartsong Cookies to Maurice and Mercedes.  I think a hug was probably the perfect elixer to soothe their pain.  Mercedes evidently thought so too, because today he made a point to stop by Ryan's office to tell him he loved the cookies and wanted more.  Very cool. 

I have so much more to share about the weekend and no energy to continue.  Meltdowns can certainly suck the life out of you.  This five day posting will just have to continue tomorrow. 

Many hugs,
Kathy
 

They Had Me At FREE! - Day 68

Today I received a text from Carrabba's.  I glanced down and saw the word FREE and I was as good as there.  The offer was for a FREE small entree with the purchase of a small entree.  All that was required was to show your server the text on your phone.  I can do that.  I picked up the phone and called my brother to see if he was up for a spur of the moment dinner.  I had him at FREE.  We met at Carrabba's in Altamonte.  Michael ordered the small Chicken Bryan.  I opted for the small Chicken Marsala and a Quartino of Red Sangria.  Our bill was about $22 for a really nice evening out.  Good food and good company at a good price.  I'm happy again.

Tonight's baking adventure began at Costco.  I picked up more butter, eggs, nuts, dried fruit and a new item called the Metro Mix.  It is a mixture of whole almonds, cashews, cranberries, blueberries and white chocolate chips.  It sounded like a cookie waiting to happen.  Once home I measured out 3 cups of Metro Mix, added a cup of white chocolate chips and a 1/2 cup of toasted walnuts.  The mix was added to my favorite base dough.  Then I tried to come up with a name.  I had nothing.  I scooped out the dough and baked a pan.  Maybe that would inspire me.  Voila, the "Jewel Box Cookie" was born.  When the pan came out of the oven the cookies looked like they were studded with rubies, sapphires, topaz and diamonds.  They are really quite beautiful.  I couldn't stop looking at them.  And then another name hit me.  How about the  "Bedazzled Cookie"?  I can't decide.  Help!

Many hugs,
Kathy

I'm Happy - Day 67

I cannot think of a better place to do business than happy hour at PF Chang's with Dennis.  We met after work to go over a proof and did everything else but.  We ordered dinner off their new happy hour menu.  Most items range in price from $3-$6.  We tried Lemongrass Chicken Steamed Dumplings, Red Fire Pork Dumplings and Fried Green Beans.  Mmmm...everything was yummy.  We even got an "oops" order of the pork dumplings and devoured every bite.  You can't get happy at a happy hour without a thirst quenching libation.  My drink of choice was the Asian Pear Mojito.  Dennis favored his old standby, the Margarita.  Ali, our server made us extra happy with an "Oops" round of drinks delivered with a wink and a smile.  Perhaps the best part of the meal...other than the company, was our ultra indulgent banana egg rolls with ice cream and a caramel drizzle.  Once again the plate left the table clean as a whistle.

Did I mention that I am happy?  Really happy.  And it doesn't have a thing to do with the Asian Pear Mojitos I consumed.  I love my crazy full plate life.  I wouldn't live it any other way.

On the baking docket for the evening...White Chocolate Blueberry Pecan and Toasted Walnut Chocolate Chip Cookies.  The smell is divine.  You just can't beat the smell of butter, brown sugar and chocolate baking to a golden brown.

Many hugs and cookies,
Kathy

Balance - Day 66

I could get use to this breathing thing.  Today was another day when I took my time.  I took the long way to Gainesville.  Even indulged myself in a Five Guys Burger and Fries for lunch.  I got all my work done and  had time leftover to buy ingredients for my next baking adventure and goodies for a mini version of my annual Fall display.  My life felt balanced.  A little of this.  A little of that.  Time for me.  It was a very good day.

Tonight I baked.  White Chocolate Macadamia, Toasted Walnut Chocolate Chip, Peanut Butter Cup Chocolate Chip Pecan and White Chocolate Blueberry Pecan.  I think breathing agrees with me because the night's baking adventure was a success.  I put together four baskets for friends and it isn't even 1:00 a.m. yet.  I may actually fit in time for a little beauty sleep.  Sweet dreams!

Many hugs,
Kathy

A Day To Catch My Breath - Day 65

Run here.  Run there.  Bake.  Bake.  Bake some more.  Run some more.  Bake.  Bake.  Bake.  Run.  Run.  Run.  Such has been my life the last month.  But not today.  Today I caught my breath.  I began the day with a press check with my good friend Margaret.  Then it was on to breakfast with Margaret.  It was mid morning and I wasn't running or rushing or baking.  I was relaxing and sharing good food and conversation with one of my favorite people.  It set the tone for the day.  When I returned to the office, I actually waded through my work at a leisurely pace and just about got caught up.  I love that feeling of being on top of it all.  Ahhhhhhhhhhh.

Tonight the good times continued with Mike and an Insiders Cocktail Party at Bahama Breeze...FREE drinks and appetizers from 5-7.  We pigged out on wings, onion rings, jerk chicken pasta, salad, veggie quesadillas, spinach dip, chips and coconut shrimp.  Yum.  Did I mention it was FREE?!  If you have not yet become a Bahama Breeze Insider, what are you waiting for?  Bahama Breeze holds these special events about once a quarter.  Just go to www.bahamabreeze.com to register. 

I have one basket on the docket for tomorrow.  Just one basket of 24 and I am taking my time.  I am actually enjoying the process.  I methodically put together three batches of dough and then set my butt down on the couch to talk to Mike and write my blog.  Baking will commence in a moment, but for now I am reveling in a few deep breaths.

Many hugs,
Kathy

Rest and Relaxation - Day 64

I cringed when Mike's alarm went off at 5:50 a.m.  It felt like my head had just hit the pillow.  Mike was off to the final day of the bowling tournament.  I was off to explore the comfort of my cozy bed.  And I did a pretty good job of it until about 11:00 a.m.  Sleeping half the day away is something I never do, so guilt was a huge motivating factor in pulling me out of my cozy haven.  I showered, dressed and headed downstairs with several eating options for Chris.  He chose Carrabba's with my $10 off birthday coupon.  And an excellent choice it was!  Carrabba's just rolled out a new Fall inspired seasonal menu.  I ordered the Penne Mediterraneo.  Yum!  Penne pasta tossed with roasted veggies and grilled shrimp in a light garlic olive oil sauce.  Paired with a Quartino of red sangria, this was the perfect way to relax and unwind.   And the price was right as well.  With the coupon discount, my entree came to $4.00.

The rest of the afternoon was spent visiting numerous Michaels craft stores to pick up treat bags for the week ahead.  The evening was spent parked on the couch searching for wholesale packaging options for Heartsong Cookies.  This was about as close as I got to a cookie adventure for the day.  It was such a luxury to actually have the time to do a whole lot of nothing.

Many hugs,
Kathy

Loss - Day 63

Saturday began with hugs and cookies and ended with a thud.  I met my friend Juliana and her mom to drop off a basket of cookies for their trip back to South Florida.  Juliana surprised me with several shopping bags filled with decorative cello bags, kraft bags and pastry cups for my cookie business.  Very cool.

Then it was on to pick up Christopher for our trek to Gainesville for the UF/LSU game.  Mike had to stay in Orlando for the bowling team tournamemt, so I opted to try a different approach to our pregame ritual of tailgating.  I let Beef O'Brady's do the cooking.  We met Ryan and Poletick at Beef's for beer, wings and good conversation.  Then it was on to the Gator Walk and Fan Fest.  This day was shaping up to be a pretty good one...that is, until we walked in the Swamp.

The team was decked out in new orange jerseys that harkened back to the 80's.  They played like a team from the 80's.  Like the 0-10 and 1 team from 1980.  Uug!  This team seems lost...a team without an identity.  As Gator fans, we are spoiled rotten brats.  Losing does not agree with us.  The game ended after 11:00 with a final score of UF-29/LSU - 33.  Chris and I did not get out of Gainesville until 1:00 a.m.  Traffic was as abysmal as the Gators played.  We arrived back home at 3:00 a.m., my new favorite time for going to sleep.  Not!  Needless to say I am back to feeling absolutely exhausted..

No cookie adventures are happening Sunday.  I have had about as much excitement as one girl can stand.

Many hugs,
Kathy

I'm Back! - Days 49-62

I always thought a sabbatical was defined as time away from your usual routine or job...a time to rejunevnate or learn something new.  My posting sabbatical was anything but rejuvenating.  It was frantic and energy sapping.  However, I did learn a thing or two along the way.  I learned I cannot function on less than four hours of sleep.  I learned that baking 8 cookies at a time in the commercial kitchen oven is NOT going to work.  I learned even I have limits to what I can do and "NO" is not a dirty word.  I learned that I actually miss my daily posting.  It has become a part of who I am.  Posting gives me a chance to reflect on my day and organize my thoughts for the days ahead.  Soooooo...after 13 arduous, crazy days, I am back!

Heartsong Cookies has taken off beyond my wildest dreams.  I have been averaging at least 10 basket orders a week and it is all I can do to keep up with the baking in the evenings after wrapping up my full time job selling printing.  My debut at the Lake Mary Farmers' Market was last Saturday, 10/2.  Once again with the help of family and friends we pulled it off...on two hours of sleep.  The day was beautiful, traffic surprisingly brisk and sales were good.  White Chocolate Blueberry Pecan Cookies were the fan favorite once again. 

I like my new home.  The next two Saturdays will be spent in Gainesville at the Gator games, but I will be back at Lake Mary on Saturday, October 23.  The Lake Mary Fall Festival is being held in that area the same day, so hopefully the market will be filled with lots of cookie lovers.  I plan to bake plenty of seasonal items like Glazed Sugar Cookies, Cranberry Chocolate Chip Pecan Cookies and Pumpkin Chocolate Chip Cookies.

Today the weather is absolutely glorious.  It makes me very glad to be alive and happy I survived the last two weeks.

Many hugs,
Kathy

A Full Plate - Day 48

I have a full plate for the weekend.  Tonight's appetizer was a VIP party for the opening of Howl-O-Scream at Busch  Gardens.  The main course is tomorrow's tailgate for the UF/Kentucky game.  Dessert on Sunday involves cookies...lots and lots of cookies.  Orders came in this evening for 9 more baskets due next week to go along with the four I already have scheduled for Monday delivery.  Not to mention all the cookies I need to bake for my Lake Mary Farmers' Market debut next Saturday...or the heavy work load I have scheduled for my full time job selling printing.  All this craziness necessitates a posting sabbatical for a few days.  I promise to be back with lots of stories and hopefully some better postings.

Many hugs,
Kathy

A Good Day - Day 47

Happy Birthday Mom and Kenda!  I really enjoyed your special day.  After running a stress marathon the last few days with work and my cookie business, it was great to take a breath and enjoy lunch with Kenda and dinner with Mom and Michael.  It is funny, it was your birthday, but I got all the gifts. 

Kenda celebrated her birthday by making lunch for ME.  We have things a little backwards, but I am not complaining.  It was delicious!  She made Indian Sloppy Joes and a salad of fresh kale and sundried tomatoes in a light lemon vinaigrette.  I made a pig of myself and enjoyed every bite.

Dinner was yummy as well.  My mom had a table and a bottle of wine waiting for me when I arrived at Brio.  We decided Tuscan Tasters, wine, chocolate martinis and chocolate caramel cake would be the perfect way to celebrate her day.  It was!  There were no cards from me.  No presents from me.  The baking and work marathon made sure of that.  What I did give to her was time...one of my most valued possessions these days.  And we all enjoyed every moment.  When I got home from running errands this evening, a voice mail message was waiting for me.  My mom said this was her best birthday ever.  I have to agree.

As a side note, all 200 cookies baked last night were assembled into baskets and delivered to happy recipients today.  Mission accomplished.  I really have a cookie business.

Many hugs,
Kathy

The Best - Day 46

It is late and I am delirious, but I am compelled to share this one bit of info...
 I HAVE THE BEST HUSBAND IN THE ENTIRE UNIVERSE!

Tonight I was baking until the wee hours of the morning at the commercial kitchen.  I was nervous about leaving alone in the dark and expressed this to my husband Mike earlier this evening.  In fact I vented about a lot of things that frustrated me today.  Mike patiently listened.  And then he did the most thoughtful amazing thing.  He drove all the way from Gainesville after his bowling team meeting and surprised me at the kitchen at 12:30 a.m.  He even waited another hour while I finished my baking.  He never complained.  He simply smiled that smile I love so much.  The smile that makes everything right in the world.

Many hugs for Mike,
Kathy

Cookie Assembly Line - Day 45

Tonight after driving all over Florida I headed to A Chateau Kitchen to make cookie dough...lots and lots of cookie dough.  Fifteen batches to be exact.  To crank it out efficiently I set up an assembly line.  I measured out the dry ingredients in plastic storage containers, counted out the butter and eggs for each batch and went to work.  It took me a little over four hours, but I made enough dough to yield at least 275 cookies.  I have to bake and assemble eleven baskets by Thursday.  Oh my!   Time to get a little shut eye before tackling another crazy day.

Many hugs,
Kathy

The Power Of Good...Cookies - Day 44

Last night I assembled a sample basket from the cookies Kenda and I baked late yesterday.  The basket was to fill a request from Kathy, a friend from a large engineering firm.  She called me last week to see if I would be willing to do a basket to present to her co-workers.  She anticipated ordering up to 75 gifts of some kind for their customers and thought my cookies may be the perfect choice.  Kathy had tasted my cookies before, but had never seen my basket presentation.  She seemed genuinely impressed when I dropped off the basket.  For a change, I offered NO apologies.  I actually was very pleased with the results.

I guess Kathy's co-workers were pleased as well because I received a glorious voice mail from Kathy late this afternoon.  She said that my cookies were the best she had ever tasted and asked me to call her to discuss an order for Thursday this week.  Wow!  I couldn't dial her number fast enough.  Kathy ordered TEN baskets...TEN!  It couldn't have come at a better time.  Due to no farmers' market home the last couple of weeks, little money is coming in and lots is going out.  Her order will ease the pain. 

Never underestimate the power of good...cookies!

Many hugs,

Kathy

It Worked! - Day 43

This afternoon I met Kenda at A Chateau Kitchen for a little cookie experimentation.  We tested the oven with the dough I had leftover from Thursday night.  Baking 5 at a time on the third rack from the bottom seemed to do the trick.  Pan after pan actually worked!  Yahoo!  I had hoped to bake multiple pans at once, but right now I will settle for simply getting a few cookies at a time that spread and don't burn.

Unfortunately I left the house without Otis, my new miniature convection oven compliments of Michael.  I will have to test it out this week at home.  The plan is to crank out cookies by using both the kitchen oven and Otis.

Kenda and I created a new cookie flavor this afternoon - Overjoyed!...a dark chocolate base with bittersweet chocolate chips, coconut, chopped Marcona almonds and toasted coconut on top.  I usually don't taste my cookies, but this was one I couldn't resist.  I have to say...it was yummy.  The coconut added just the right flavor to balance the dark chocolate and almonds.  Kenda named the cookie.  I am really feeling the name.  OVERJOYED is how I feel at the end of a successful baking adventure.

Many hugs,
Kathy 

Discombobulated - Day 42

The few that read my blog on a regular basis will notice my story telling ability has gone downhill the last several weeks.  Sleep deprivation does funny things to the brain.  For me, it saps every ounce of creativity and leaves me forgetful and discombobulated.  Never has this been more apparent than the last two days.  Keys were misplaced, blog typos were made, Costco wine work folders vanished in thin air.  I felt frustrated and out of control...not good for a control freak like me.

When I finally arrived at Costco after an hour of searching for my work materials (and never finding them), I took a deep breath.  I forgot how relaxing sitting on my butt for 4 hours can be.  It gave me a chance to organize my thoughts and make to do lists.  I got to savor the familiar sounds of Vera's goofy cackle and Daniel's "May I help you?"  I got hugs from Minerva and lots of inquiries about the success of my cookie business.  As I sat there I realized this would really be my last time working at Costco.  I tried to quit several weeks ago and got talked into coming back.  I love the people, but desperately need to time to make my business a success. 

Tomorrow Kenda and I are meeting at the kitchen for a little oven and recipe experimentation.  We are testing out the new Otis Spunkmeyer Oven and trying to find the trick to the kitchen's convection oven.  We are going to try out a new flavor combination - Dark Chocolate Coconut Almond and bake some old standbys White Chocolate Blueberry Pecan and Toasted Pecan Chocolate Chip.  Hopefully we will be able to fit in some of my website homework assignment and take photos for the blog.

Many hugs,
Kathy 

Oozing Goodness - Day 41

From the moment Kent picked up his basket, to dinner tonight with Mike, this day oozed goodness.  Lack of sleep was a distant memory as soon as I opened the door to present Kent with his cookie basket.  He seemed genuinely pleased and that made me very happy.  Cookies continued to work their magic as I headed to a business meeting with my new customer Michael.  As I greeted him I placed a hug bag in his hand.  His eyes lit up.  Michael could not wait for me to leave to break into his treat.  He opened the bag right in the middle of the meeting and started munching away on a rather large White Chocolate Macadamia Cookie.  Happiness continued to follow me. Next stop was a cookie delivery to Phyllis, my first customer from my farmers' market debut.  Phyllis had ordered a basket of 12 cookies for an event on Saturday.  She was at work, but her aunt gratefully accepted the basket and handed me a check.  My first order to a new friend was complete.

Morgan, David and I met for lunch at Bike, Beans and Bordeaux to discuss my website.  Upon sitting down at the table I was presented with a very special gift.  Morgan and David ordered the cutest Heartsong Cookies buttons as a special surprise for me.  My jaw dropped at their thoughtfulness.  Morgan and David ooze goodness.  Not in a sickening sweet way, but in a way that is genuine and true.  I am older than their parents, but when I spend time with them I am back in my twenties once again.  Today they gave me homework for creating my website.  I have to make an outline of my site menu and send pricing and photos.  Next week the site should be revealed.  All of this with their only payment being cookies and a hug.

The cumulative effect of lack of sleep has finally slapped me across the face.  I can barely put two words together.  I want so much to be able to describe just how incredible this day has been, but my brain is empty. 

Many hugs,
Kathy

I Have A Home! - Day 40

I knew today was going to be a good cookie day when I opened my e-mail and discovered an e-mail from Lake Mary Farmers' Market.  I finally have a home!  Melissa, the market manager, responded to my e-mail in less than 24 hours.  Yesterday I felt such a good vibe from her site.  Lake Mary is where I am meant to be.  It is a small market with a few select vendors and not too much traffic...the perfect place to set up shop.  I begin at the market on Saturday, October 2. 

Tonight the fun continued with a kitchen pot luck meeting with the gang from A Chateau Kitchen.  The topic of the evening was setting up a retail shop for all the renters before the holiday season begins.  Plans were made for a couple of open house events to promote our kitchen products.  I have a sneaking suspicion sleep will be in short supply the next few months...starting tonight.

It is a good thing I love to bake because bake is all I did tonight.  Milk Chocolate Blueberry Pecan, White Chocolate Macadamia, Peanut Butter Cup Chocolate Chip Pecan, Tropical Escape and Choc-O-Chips Cookies filled the air with the scent of pure joy.  Every batch got a big thumbs up from the eyeball test. The good day karma was in full force.  I assembled baskets for Phyllis, Kent, my co-workers and tomorrow's lucky proof recipients...all the while reveling in the fact that all the pieces of the puzzle were finally coming together.  I have a home!  Happy Dance!!!!!!

Many hugs,
Kathy 

Still Homeless - Day 39

I still have no farmers' market home and I am getting worried.  The end of the month will be here before you know it and with it comes another month of kitchen rental and the yearly business tax receipt.  Today I called the Downtown Orlando Farmers' Market number and was "greeted" rather rudely on the other end of the line.  The purpose of my call was simply to make sure my application had been received.  I was told that if I had read the guidelines I would know that they will contact me in seven days.  I did read the guidelines, but with my recent Maitland Farmers' Market debacle, I am afraid to assume anything.  I hung up the phone and immediately felt discouraged...but not defeated.

I went online to download the application for the Lake Mary Farmers' Market.  Instead of a grumpy voice, I was greeted by a bright, colorful, well organized site.  How refreshing!  I filled out the application, faxed it and e-mailed photos of my debut.  The Lake Mary Farmers' Market is held on Saturdays.  This presents a baking challenge.  Dough will have to be made on Thursdays and baked on Fridays.  Gator games are played on Saturdays.  I am not missing a Gator game.  Somehow, someway, I have to find a home.

Many hugs,
Kathy

Kindred Spirits - Day 38

This morning I stumbled across and article I had previously neglected in my latest edition of Bon Appetit.  It was an article written just for me by Dorie Greenspan, celebrated cookbook author and baker.  The article called "The Cookie Shop Chronicles" documents Dorie's dive into business with her son Josh.  After much encouragement from friends who loved their cookie treats, Dorie and Josh opened a  "pop-up shop" in an upscale Park Avenue salon in New York City.  A "pop-up shop" is a relatively new trend of a store within a store...here today, gone a few tomorrows later.  What surprised me most about the article, was how parallel our journeys had been.  Dorie, a renowned baker, had the same challenges I did with convection oven temperatures, cookie size, burned bottoms and raw insides.  Suddenly I felt I had found a kindred spirit.  I was not alone in my challenges.  Things would all work out.

This afternoon my brother sent me a text that the used Otis Spunkmeyer convection cookie oven he ordered on eBay arrived and he was dropping it off at the house.  I can't wait to experiment with it.  I feel exactly like I felt when I got my very first Easy Bake Oven for Christmas.  This may be the solution to my oven nightmares.  Or maybe it will be a fun way to bring customers into the booth...warm cookies are downright irresistible.  Whatever it is, I am just very thankful my brother has taken such an interest in making our business work.  Time for a happy dance!

Many hugs,
Kathy

A Good Start - Day 37

This morning when the alarm went off at 5:30 a.m., I didn't mind at all.  I was heading to Matt's office to deliver the cookies I made last night.  I cannot think of a better way to start a work day...with hugs and cookies!  The look on Matt's face when he opened the door was pure joy.  His eyes widened as he surveyed the huge basket of cookies.  Matt generously compensated me for my time.  As hard as I tried, I could not talk him out of his generosity.  It was appreciated more than he will ever know.  Now I can pay the Business Tax Receipt invoice due by September 30.  I gave him an extra big hug and headed out the door ready to take on the world.

Heartsong Cookies is homeless.  Today I finally took the next step to finding a home.  I faxed my application to the Downtown Orlando Farmers Market requesting admission by 9/26.  Two weeks off is long enough.  I need to get as much exposure as possible prior to the holiday season.

Many hugs,
Kathy

Full Circle - Day 36

Last year around this time, I received my first order for cookies.  My client and friend Matt asked me to make fall themed baskets for his clients.  He had created a beautiful card with a real fall leaf attached and wanted something special to accompany the card.  I was extremely flattered that he thought my cookies would be the perfect choice.  Matt gave me far more than financial compensation with this order...he gave me confidence.  Confidence to pursue my dream of a cookie business.

Last week after my debut at the Maitland Farmers' Market, I received another call from Matt.  This time he congratulated me on my new venture and once again placed an order.  This time he asked me to make one gargantuan fall themed basket with 60 cookies - 30 Dark Chocolate Cherry Berry and 30 White Chocolate Blueberry Pecan.  I baked my heart out this evening and assembled the massive basket.  As I stepped back to gaze at the results a little smile appeared on my face.  I had come full circle over the last year and it has been one amazing journey.

Many hugs,
Kathy

The Hottest Game Ever - Day 35

This morning we got up early to make the trek to Gainesville for the UF/USF game.  Tailgating was brief, but tasty.  I tried something new...a breakfast pizza.  I scrambled some eggs, warmed some pre-cooked bacon and spread them both on a pizza crust from Costco.  A sprinkling of cheddar cheese, prosciutto and a few minutes back on the grill yielded a yummy breakfast treat.  My portable grill leaves a little to be desired in the temperature control front, but I would definitely try this again.

The game started at 12:20, leaving little doubt that we would be hot.  Sunscreen was slathered on, sweet tea was downed, but nothing could ward off the effects of the sweltering heat.  It was without a doubt the hottest game ever.  I drank everything in sight and still felt sick.  Thank goodness the Gators woke up in the second half and made the day bearable.  Mike, Ryan, Chris and I headed to Beef O'Brady's after the game for wings and beer.  We were surrounded by big screens featuring the demise of Florida State and Miami.  Good wings, cold beer and losses by our rivals...it just doesn't get any better than that!

Many hugs,
Kathy

Tuckered Out - Day 34

Exhaustion seems to be a recurring theme this week.  It is definitely time for some rest.  So what do have planned?!  Staying in bed until noon?  Noooooo, I am getting up at 5:00 a.m. to get ready for a trip to Gainesville to host a breakfast tailgate before the UF/USF game at 12:20.  I am making breakfast pizzas on the grill and serving them with fresh fruit, mini coffee cakes and mimosas.  Then I am going to sit in the sweltering heat with 90,000 of my closest friends to cheer on my beloved Gators.  Yes, I am deranged, happy and just plain tuckered out.

Many hugs,
Kathy

I've Been Busy - Day 33

To say I have been busy is an understatement.  I have been going non stop for the last few weeks and it is definitely catching up with me.  I feel like I have two full time jobs and very little personal time.  I need to change that.

Tonight I was busy baking cookies for Annabelle, Brandon, N.Y., Dennis and Lynne.  I made Dark Chocolate Cherry Berry, Apple Cinnamon Crunch, White Chocolate Blueberry Pecan, Peanut Butter Cup Chocolate Chip Pecan and Toasted Walnut Chocolate Chip Cookies.  It is 2:37 a.m. and I need rest.  I think I will let the pictures do the talking tonight.  Sweet Dreams.

Many hugs,
Kathy

I Keep Pinching Myself - Day 32

I have a business.  It is real.  I have orders.  I have a new business bank account with checks and an ATM card.  I feel like a little kid.  The smile hasn't left my face in days.  I keep pinching myself.

Today was a great day.  It was filled with lots of work from my full time printing sales job mixed with a couple of cookie basket orders.  The cherry on top was dinner with Dennis at Longhorn Steakhouse.  They currently are offering a Three Course Meal for Two for $29.95.  Your choice of an appetizer or dessert to share, salad and a choice of 6 different entrees.  I would highly recommend checking it out.  Dennis and I talked about plans for the future of Heartsong Cookies.  I am taking a break this weekend while I look for a new farmers' market home.  As soon as I finish this posting I am filling out an application for the Downtown Orlando Farmers' Market at Lake Eola. 

Many Hugs,
Kathy 

Breakfast Cookie Experiment -Day 31

This afternoon I got a call from my friend and co-worker Carolyn making a rush cookie request.  She has a group of about six customers coming into the office in the morning and wondered if I could make a breakfast cookie.  Of course I can!  A couple of weeks ago I ran across a yummy sounding recipe on the King Arthur Flour site.  I wanted an excuse to try it out and Carolyn's request gave it to me.  This cookie base includes peanut butter and your choice of add ins.  I opted for dried apples, dried blueberries, toasted pecans and apple blueberry granola.  It isn't at all like my usual fare.  This cookie doesn't include any baking soda or baking powder.  The texture is denser, less buttery and filled with healthy goodness.  I like it.  I just hope Carolyn's customers do too.  If it is well received, I thought it would be the perfect choice for early morning farmers' market customers.

This evening I got another call from my friend N.Y.  She had stopped by the booth late Sunday and picked up a couple of cookies for her family.  It was then that she made the request for a cookie with no vanilla extract.  N.Y. asked if vanilla bean could be substituted for the extract.  I don't see why not.  Tonight she placed an official order for twelve no extract cookies for the weekend.  I am excited to expand my repertoire and try something new.

This cookie business of mine is taking on a life of its own and I love it!

Many hugs,
Kathy

Recuperation - Day 30

Today was all about recuperation.  Shortly after we closed up shop yesterday my body rebelled from lack of sleep.  The adrenaline that had propelled me through the morning to early afternoon had run dry.  I barely had the energy to pick up a feather.  My knee locked up.  My back throbbed.  I shuffled to the car like I was 102 years old.  It took a lot of sleep to get me to where I ended up today...feeling more like 62 than my 52 years, but much better nonetheless.  The rest of the day was spent running errands and basking in the happiness of a job well done.  I could not stop replaying all the events of the Heartsong debut over and over in my head.  The cookies were less than perfect, but not the day.  It was absolute perfection and one of my best days ever.

Many hugs,
Kathy

Heartsong Debut - Day 29

Today was the debut of Heartsong Cookies and one of the best days of my life.  The Heartsong caravan arrived at the Maitland Farmers' Market a few minutes after 8:00 a.m. and went right to work staging our booth.  Mike, Mom, Michael and Dennis all pitched in to carry all the gear to our site.  We put up the canopy and tables, topped them with chocolate brown table cloths, filled the aqua cooler with drinks and ice, hung the signs, put out the cookie baskets and began greeting customers.  Soon Kenda and Mark arrived to help.  The next 4 hours were filled with more hugs and love than you can imagine.  Customers seemed to love the cookies and the hug bag concept made them smile.  A hug consisted of two cookies of your choice in a hug bag.  We sold out of cookies around noon.  I could not believe the success.  Last night about midnight I actually considered giving up.  I am so glad I kept going.  As you can probably guess by the choppiness of this posting I am still recovering from lack of sleep.

All I can say is thanks to the generous spirit of my family and friends, Heartsong Cookies was born and thrived.  You all made my heart sing.

Many hugs,
Kathy

45 Minutes...- Day 28

Bumpy is the best ride to describe my Saturday.  In fact, I think that applies quite well to the start of my beloved Gators season as well.  The day started alright.  Mike, Chris and I headed up to Gainesville  to meet Ryan and his friends before the game.  It was great to see everyone again.  All was right in the world...or at least I thought it was.  Then the game began.  It was sloppy, hot, and frankly, not too much fun.  All I could think about was how much I could be accomplishing at the kitchen.  We left in the third quarter and headed home.

My kitchen time was scheduled from 8-12.  Dennis, Michael, Chris, Kenda and Mark all met me there to help.  I set up an arts and craft project for Kenda and Mark to help with the packaging materials.  They stamped hug bags, punched hearts, applied labels and cut ribbon...lots and lots of ribbon.  Dennis and Michael helped me throw together several more batches of dough while the refrigerated dough from the night before softened up.  Mike was a surprise addition when he showed up with the ingredients labels I had been stressing out about and a cooler of drinks.  It was smooth sailing.  Then I turned on the oven - the lovely vintage convection oven with the worn dial that makes setting the oven temperature an adventure.  The trial run on Wednesday told me I may face some challenges, but it did not prepare me for just how many.  We began the baking with Dark Chocolate Marcona Almond Cookies.  It seemed to go OK.  Dark Chocolate Cherry Berry were next.  Not perfect, but still good.  Then came the first batch of Toasted Pecan Chocolate Chip.  This recipe calls for a slightly higher temperature.  I turned the mystery dial slightly to the right and peered into the oven to take a look at the inside thermometer.  The temperature had gone down.  I turned the dial a little more.  The temperature jumped up 75 degrees.  This is not a good thing when it comes to baking.

After numerous tries, I finally got the gauge to read 350 F.  In went two pans of Toasted Pecan Chocolate Chip Cookies.  The timer was set for 5 minutes.  When the buzzer went off,  I checked on the progress.  Not good.  The dough had only spread slightly.  The tops of the cookie "lumps" were already brown only halfway through the process.  I began to panic.  I set the timer for the balance of the time and anxiously awaited the results.  What I got was a cookie bearing no resemblance to a Heartsong Cookie.  It was a big lump of dough very dark brown on the bottom and top, but raw in the middle.  I could not serve these to anyone.  It was 11:00 and I had 32 passable cookies to show for our effort.  Not good.

It was time to regroup and get creative.  I sent the gang home to tackle my dilemma alone.  I became a multitasking machine.  Scooping dough, turning pans, bagging cooled cookies.  Repeat.  Repeat.  Repeat.  I do not know the final total, but it approached 200 less than perfect cookies.  The clock was my enemy.  I still had two batches of dough to bake and the clock read 5:25.  I was going to have to start getting ready for the day in a less than an hour.  This would have to be good enough.

Into bed I climbed and got up 45 minutes later ready to tackle one of the best days of my life.

Many hugs,
Kathy

Poetry In Motion - Day 27

Last night was pure poetry in motion.  With the help of Mike, Chris, Dennis and my brother Michael, we stocked the kitchen and cranked out ten batches of cookie dough like we had been doing it all our lives.  Dennis patiently broke up 4 1/2 pounds of toasted pecans and never complained a moment.  Michael patiently unwrapped two bags of Reese's Peanut Butter Cups and quartered them.  I bossed everyone around like I was the expert and they didn't seem to mind.  We were on a mission...Mission Heartsong Cookies.

Tonight we have to get all the cookies baked, bagged and dressed in Heartsong finery.  But for now I am off to experience my annual rite of passage into fall...the first Gator game of the season.  Yes, I am crazy, but those who know me already knew that.

Many hugs and GO GATORS!

Kathy

Baking My Heart Out - Day 26

Oh my, am I exhausted and the baking marathon has just begun.  A Red Bull or 5 Hour Energy Cookie may be on the horizon.  Tonight I fulfilled a promise to my friend July to bake 200...yes, TWO HUNDRED, mini Toasted Pecan Chocolate Chip cookies for her daughter's Sweet 16 party.  I made the promise before I established my debut date for Heartsong.  But a promise is a promise. 

Soooooo, after I got off work about 7:30 and bought some needed ingredients at the store, I arrived home at 9:00 to eat dinner and begin tonight's baking adventure.  I set up the kitchen like a mini assembly line, measuring chocolate chips and toasted pecans into disposable storage containers all in a row.  Then I made five batches of dough and scooped and baked my little heart out until 3:00 a.m.  This is why Day 26 is actually being posted on Day 27.  This morning I am tying lavender ribbon on those two hundred little cookies, tossing them in a basket and heading out the door to continue the marathon.  Thank goodness I was blessed with a motor that just won't quit.  I am going to need it to make it to the finish line.

Many hugs,
Kathy

Kitchen Experiment - Day 25

Tonight I was like a fish out of water in my new commercial kitchen home.  It was my first night to experiment with baking in a commercial convection oven.  After finally figuring out how to turn it on, I had major challenges with the temperature and position in the oven.  Some cookies spread perfectly.  Some cookies did not.  Some cooked quickly.  Some took more time.  I am worried about baking on Saturday.  This was my only night to experiment and the results were mixed.

My other gigantic worry is time.  It is my demon.  The list of things to do before Sunday morning keeps growing and the clock keeps ticking.  I feel overwhelmed and tired...and hopeful and excited.

Many hugs,
Kathy

Hugfest! - Day 24

Welcome to Kathy's Wild Ride, full of ear popping highs and stomach turning lows.  Yesterday all hope was lost.  Today hope abounds.

Early this morning I gathered my business paper work and headed to the Maitland Senior Center to meet Mari and discuss my options.  Her tone was much different from the day before.  Defensive statements were replaced with apologies.  She had read my e-mail and began to think she had confused me with another vendor.  She didn't want to be responsible for taking away my dream and had already placed calls to several other markets in the area.  I really appreciated her efforts and explained I would have to come to the market on Sunday to intercept any friends that might show up.  That is when Mari gave me a gift.  She offered me a booth space for this Sunday, September 5.  The space would be at the back of the market.  I did not care.  I had a space.  Happy, Happy, Happy Dance!

Heartsong Cookies will debut on Sunday, September 5 from 9-2 at the Maitland Farmers' Market after all.  I promise a Cookie and Hugfest of gargantuan proportions!

Many hugs,
Kathy

I Need A Hug! - Day 23

This afternoon Mari from the Maitland Farmers' Market let the wind out of my sails and sent me plummeting head first into the ground.  What began as a follow up call to confirm a time to meet Mari this Sunday for booth payment and space assignment, ended with the discovery that she had accepted another cookie vendor since we last spoke and placed me on a waiting list that could take months.  I begin my commercial kitchen lease on Wednesday and will have 30 hours of baking time with no outlet to sell my cookies.  To say I am devastated would be an understatement.

The leap into entrepreneurship has been quite a journey into unfamiliar territory.  I always say growth and life lessons occur outside your comfort zone.  Looks like I am due for a huge growth spurt and some higher education.  I have asked many questions along my quest, done tons of research on the subject and followed all instructions to the letter.  Problem is there are many questions I don't know to ask and I am far too trusting of the information given.  Ignorance is definitely not bliss, it is a recipe for disaster.

Everything happens for a reason.  Maybe I was meant to play cookie fairy a little longer.  Maybe I needed more time to reach cookie perfection and I didn't even know it.  Maybe I was destined for a more well attended farmers' market.  For whatever reason, I will NOT be making my Heartsong Cookies, LLC debut on Sunday, September 5.  However, I will start baking cookies on Wednesday, September 1 for family and friends.  In the meantime, I need a hug!

Many hugs,
Kathy

Feeling Like A Cookie Rock Star - Day 22

What a fabulous day this turned out to be!  As much as I hated to get up this morning when the alarm went off at 6:50, I enjoyed every minute of the day.  Vicky and I met for breakfast at First Watch, then headed to A Chateau Kitchen to work out the final details of next week's start up.  Vicky had the same reaction to the kitchen that I did when I first walked through the door.  There is positive energy going on in this place.  I am so excited, I cannot wait for Wednesday to arrive.  Wednesday is the day I do a trial run in the kitchen.

My final day at Costco was next on the agenda.  Today I played cookie fairy to all my co-workers and a few of my regular customers.  I wish I had a videotape of Customer George as he bit into a White Chocolate Blueberry Pecan Cookie.  He moaned and grinned until the entire cookie was gone...proclaiming it was better than a girlfriend.  Now that is a ringing endorsement if I ever heard one.  Customer Anthony shuffled by.  He LOVES the White Chocolate Blueberry Pecan Cookie.  I saved the last one for him and got a huge farewell hug in return.  Daniel picked up his bag of Daniel's Cookies and insisted I try one with him.  We both agreed the combination of peanut butter cups, chocolate chips and toasted pecans was a winner.  "We did good!" is all he said as he walked down the aisle.  Suddenly the effects of little sleep disappeared.  I felt like a Cookie Rock Star.  Playing cookie fairy definitely gave my confidence a major boost at a time I certainly could use it.  This is what life is all about.  Not lots of money or lots of things, but lots and lots of happiness.

Many hugs,

Kathy

Costco Cookies - Day 21

Tomorrow is my last day at Costco...at least for a while.  To celebrate I baked cookies for the Costco gang until the wee hours of the morning.  White Chocolate Blueberry Pecan, Toffee Almond Chocolate Chip and Daniel's special request Reese's Peanut Butter Cup Chocolate Chip Pecan...now that's a mouthful.  Then I assembled a last minute order for Lili in one of my newly decorated bags.  I love the new bags!  Now I am so tired, I cannot see straight.

Many hugs,
Kathy

Heading South - Day 20

Today was a really good day as vacation work days go.  I headed south to Jupiter to deliver a job to Jeff, one of my favorite clients.  We rendezvoused at the Food Shack.  Oh my, I would love to pack up the Food Shack and move it north to Altamonte.  The menu is steeped in seafood with lots of funky twists.  We started with the Tuna Basil Roll...the Food Shack take on an egg roll, but oh so much better.  The egg roll skin is crispy, but not greasy and the tuna perfectly rare.  The sliced roll is fanned atop a salad of field greens, fresh basil and fruit tossed in a light vinaigrette.  Yum!  My entree choice was the Platter of the Day - Grilled Shrimp, Panko Crusted Fried Oysters and a Sweet Potato Croquette served over a salad of field greens, fresh peaches, plums and fresh herbs, once again tossed in their signature vinaigrette.  The plate edges were drizzled with a spicy cocktail sauce to drag the crispy oysters through as I devoured the plate.  The balance of flavors and textures on this plate were amazing.

The tasty food was made even better by the excellent company.  Jeff is a laid back designer with a passion for paddle boarding.  He told me on my next trip to bring my bathing suit and he would take me on a paddle board adventure.  After I got over the horrifying mental image of me in a bathing suit, I warmed up to the idea.  I shared details of my Heartsong Hug Club.  Jeff shared plans of his own...a website domain called "Do it standing up" selling t-shirts and stickers with his logo designs promoting paddle boarding or...whatever.  I had to laugh...my sappy idea and his edgy one.  I think we both will be successful.

The good day continued tonight with another meal shared with friends.  I called Kenda and Mark and asked them to meet me for dinner at Little Saigon.  The summer roll and Number 34 were delicious.  We talked about Mark's Superfizzee venture and Heartsong Cookie prices.  Mark and Kenda tagged teamed me with all the reasons I should charge $2.00 per individual cookie instead of $1.75.  They almost have me convinced.  The competition prices hover around $2.00 and my cookies are filled with an abundance of  quality ingredients like chocolate, nuts and dried fruit.  But, I just don't want people to feel like I am too pricey.  I think I will just have to sleep on it.  Sleep tight!

Many hugs,
Kathy

I Feel Cute Today - Day 19

Vacation today did not include a trip to the office.  It did include a call or two and a few e-mails, but all in all it was a relaxing day. 

Lately I have been working so much, little time was left for looking cute.  Yesterday I took a chance that my sister in law would be able to fit me in for a little personal pampering today and I was in luck.  So Mike, Maddie and I headed to Lakeland to visit his parents and get my hair done.  After a nice lunch at Longhorn Steakhouse with Mike's parents I headed to Lori's salon.  Lori worked her magic on my hair and my self esteem.  I left the salon with a new bounce in my step.  Feeling cute is certainly a good way to wrap up a vacation and begin a new chapter in my life.

Tonight I got an e-mail from Morgan with graphics for my booth banner and a revision to my logo that includes the LLC.   Tomorrow I am going to order my sign.  I am getting very excited about next week's grand opening.  My cute hair is blowing in the wind as I round the final turn.  The finish line is in sight.  Cute Happy Dance!

Many hugs,
Kathy

USS Enterprise - Day 18

Well...today I was back to my wayward vacation ways, spending time at work instead of home with Mike.  After I came back to my senses, I headed home to assemble the cookie basket for Randy that was shipping out to the USS Enterprise.  I had bagged the 36 cookies the night before, but they needed to be dressed in their Heartsong finery before shipping out.  I tied ribbons on the individual packages, assembled them in the basket, wrapped the basket in tulle and ribbons, carefully packed the carton with lots of air packs and headed out the door for the post office.  Sometime in the next week, Captain Ryan will unveil a basket of hopefully tasty, not stale, Heartsong Cookies aboard the USS Enterprise.  I still think that is such a cool destination for my simple treats.  Thanks Randy, for giving me this opportunity.

Many hugs,
Kathy

I Am A Taxpayer - Day 17

This afternoon I headed to the Altamonte Springs City Clerk office to get my Business Tax Receipt for the city and the county.  I believe this is the equivalent of what I was calling an Occupational License, but frankly I am not sure.  Everytime I turn around I discover a new expense.  I found out yearly tax renewals must be paid by September 30 and that I will be charged the half year rate for the month of September.  Oh joy!  I also discovered that all my communication must say Heartsong Cookies, LLC unless I wish to pay an additional $50 to operate my business under a "ficticious name"...Heartsong Cookies.  I am proud of the fact that I am a corporation and now all will know just how proud I am!

Tonight I am baking cookies for an order from Randy.  White Chocolate Blueberry Pecan, Toasted Walnut Chocolate Chip and Peanut Butter Cookies will fill a basket headed to the U.S.S. Enterprise.  How cool is that?  I love my new adventure.  Spreading hugs is a very good thing!

Many hugs,
Kathy